This day...

September 10, 2005

This day is engraved in my memory forever

This day is the day that my world turned upside down, quite literally

This day marks the first day in my life that I had sadness so strong within me that it made me physically hurt

This day is the day friends and family came from near and far to help my family survive

This day is the day I became classified as a suicide "survivor"

This day is when I knew my life would never be the same again

This day is the day I lost my only sibling, my little brother and my friend.

 

 

 

 

On this day, nine years later, I realize how much it still hurts. I am sad on this day and every day that my brother did not get to live out his life that I know would have been great. I am sad on this day and every day that my kids did not meet and get to know such an awesome person. He would have been an amazing uncle and because they miss out on that, I am sad. On this day and every day, I just wish to talk to him or see him just one more time. I miss him so much. 

He would always lay in my bed and chat while I got ready for school...love this picture of the memory!

 

On this day it is also important to know some facts about suicide. It can happen to anyone. Scott was probably the last person in the world people would have expected to die by suicide. It knows no bounds. It is a disease, just like cancer. It is not a choice. Scott had a bright future, he was incredibly smart, musically and athletically talented, had tons of great friends, a beautiful girlfriend and lots of people who loved and respected him. Do not think it can't happen to you because my family is proof that it can. If you are worried about someone do something about. Read the information below. Know the facts. Pass them on.

Scott, on this day, and every day, I miss you and I love you. 

XOXO