#TransformationTuesday - May 2017

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Ok, here it is 4 months later, after I told you I was going to update you on my weight loss every week. Ha! First of all, I need to stop fooling myself into thinking that I have the time to take the right pictures and put up a transformation post every week, especially, if I want to continue to blog about other things as well. Second of all, there isn't a whole lot of progress to show you.

I know, I know...some of you are not surprised.

Since I wasn't blogging the posts, I decided to take the accountability to Instagram. Starting 3 weeks ago, I have talked a little about the struggles in my instastories and posted some pictures of the scale. Let  me show you a little collage from these pictures.

Do you see a trend here?? Monday - Friday the scale goes down, then I don't get on the scale over the weekend and Monday my weight is up, by Tuesday it is heading back down again. Up down, up down and essentially getting no where. Ugh.

My small goal starting April 24th was to lose 10 pounds by May 19th for a weekend trip away with Mike. I figured since I have so much to lose, it would be simple to lose weight faster at first. As of today I have lost 2.4 pounds. I still have a few days to make that a little more, but I probably won't get to 10 pounds. Ugh. Debating whether to be happy that I lost almost a pound a week?? Or sad that I didn't reach  my goal?

My next small goal is another 10 pounds by a trip we have June 29th. I really feel that if I could stay consistent on the weekends, I would be able to see a much bigger loss. How am I going to break this cycle??

Random thoughts:

1. If I could only do something that would take off 10 pounds fast... a cleanse?? I know, I know you shouldn't try fad diets and stuff like that because they don't work in the long term, but I just feel like if I could see some results, a significant loss, it would motivate me to keep going. Anyone ever feel like that? I see like a few pounds come off, but not enough to get me excited and stay on track for the weekends. I know I shouldn't, but any suggestions?? (I wrote some of this post last night, I may have woken at 4AM unable to fall back to sleep and researched some cleanses, I may have purchased an eBook on a 3 day cleanse, I may be doing it next week and if all goes well, I may tell you all about it)

2. If I could only take the weight off, I clearly have no problem maintaining! So I know that I have to put in the hard work, and then this, work hard during the week and relax on the weekends mentality will work for maintaining my goal weight. BUT I have to get to my goal weight first, that's the issue.

3. I very easily get off track. I was on a roll with walking on the treadmill. Then we went on vacation and we had people staying with us and some family stuff going on, and it took me some time to catch up on everything, so walking took a backseat. Why is working out the first to go for me? Because I hate it? Because it has never been a routine and I haven't stuck with it long enough to become a routine?  Because I am so out of shape that it makes me tired to just think about it, never mind do it?

These are all the things that go through my mind regularly lately. Same old, same old, I guess you could say. I am so tired of having to think about it. I just wish it was second nature to me, I just wish I didn't have to track, think about or feel guilty about every thing I put in my mouth. I wish I had a good relationship with food. I wish I didn't love it so much, I wish I didn't love beer. I wish I thought of food as fuel only. I wish I loved to exercise. I wish, I wish, I wish. Wishing is not going to get me to lose weight. I have to put in the hard work.

Because I love a good ecard, I have to share...

My goals for this month:

1. Track everyday, even the weekends
2. Do a cleanse
3. Meal plan every week (I have gotten off track)
4. Walk 4 days/week on the treadmill or outside (got in my walk this morning already! It helps to get up at 4AM, although I don't see that happening very often!)

If you want to keep up with the progress, you can follow me on Instagram, that's where I like to tell my stories! I would love for you to follow along!

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